Monday, May 17, 2010

Day 1

So I relapsed. I drank alcohol. I didn't get drunk. But I drank, and according to program rules ALCOHOL is not recommended. I have to be honest with myself and the other men in my program so I am willing to stand up today and get that 24 hr chip. I never got one the first time so I guess I will be making up for that tonight...

I decided that instead of going to meetings looking for men to fuck around with, I will be going to really listen and learn the steps correctly. Also going to be working on my myself more physically and mentally. I am a young gay man and the attitude I have been shown by my gay 'role models' is that a hot body goes further than a nice smile and pretty eyes with a kick ass personality can ever go. As of now, I am believing that because I really do think it's true. How can I not when it seems that I can't seem to win the gold medal doing what i'm doing now?? Men mainly care about a hot body and physical attraction, and that is the only reason I don't have a man now...

check out my next blog, entitled "Gold Medal" to follow up on what I wrote today

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